It needs but a glimmer of common sense to perceive that man is not made to pass his life in a self-centered trance. – Charles Wagner
In my previous post, I outlined a path to simplicity that relies on an inner shift towards purpose rather than on externally-imposed changes. The pull towards connecting to a personal mission has brought about that internal change in me, and it began with spiritual connection.
Before I was able to experience this connection, I had to address what was blocking it. For years, my MO was to try and control my surroundings, future outcomes, and even others. This drive to manage everything blocked me from the very peace I sought. When I recognized I’m actually powerless and surrendered to what is instead of what I thought I wanted, I began to feel moments of serenity.
I imagine a crystal stream, fish swimming, water flowing over rocks, and I’m hanging on for dear life to a tree root on the banks. I’m deluded into believing that as long as I hang on, I’m in control, and all is well. What I don’t see is that if I simply let go and yield to the current, I’ll be carried into an experience more beautiful and fulfilling than I can imagine. My stubbornness is the very thing holding me back.
I have learned to surrender.
When I concede that I’m not in control, I can connect with the one who is – my Higher Power, or God to me. Some days that link is made when I meditate, pray, and ask for guidance. Other times it comes from my willingness to admit mistakes and repair relationships with others. I find that an unexpected benefit comes from acknowledging my mistakes – I’m not as hard on myself. Something of a paradox: when I humbly do what I can to right my wrongs, my flaws seem less important. I’m making progress.
Your religion is good if it is vital, if it nourishes in you confidence, hope, love; if it renders forgiveness more easy. But does it serve to make you think yourself better than others, quibble over texts, domineer over others’ consciences, or do good in the hope of escaping future punishment? Then whether you proclaim yourself the follower of Buddha, Moses, Muhammad, or Christ, your religion is worthless – it separates you from God and man. – Charles Wagner
This quote from Charles Wagner is a good reminder for me. The way I treat others, my true motives, and even how I see myself are manifestations of what’s going on in my heart. Is my spiritual connection strong, or have I taken back the reins of my life? My approach is gentle. When I’m aware of the drifting, I simply stop for a moment and ask to be brought back to center. And I’ve found – little by little, day by day – this way of life works.